The Other Side of Endometriosis

Happy new month (:

For several years, I have spent time and money dealing with the symptoms of endometriosis. There have been countless doctor visits, lots of pills swallowed, scary surgeries. I mean, any surgery is scary, lots of anxiety, insomniac nights and worry.

However, when it comes to dealing with the root cause, I shy away. All of a sudden, I am too busy, or suddenly, some things seem to private; yet I have seen countless of doctors trying to decide what was wrong with my privates. The irony.

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A couple of weeks ago, I decided to go on an emotional journey, one of trying to figure out what triggered Endometriosis symptoms. This has been perhaps one of the hardest journeys I have ever been on. It makes the countless visits to the gynecologist , even the scary surgeries, seem like nothing.

Here I have had to get real with myself. Accept that I have been hurt, in fact, I am still hurting and what do you know, it is okay. It is not too late to receive healing. It is not too late to work through these emotions. Walking down this road of emotions can easily ruin my day, because I never quite know what I will find. I am so used to keeping up face that I almost forgot what I really look and feel like, without all the plastic ‘I am doing great’ smiles.

For years, I would gnash my teeth as I slept. If you ask anyone in my home of origin, they will tell you that Bruxism was synonymous to me. I was sometimes too embarrassed to go sleep out of the house because people would hear my not so musical tunes; worse still, they would judge me. Yet contrary to popular belief it was not something I had control over.

After I got married in 2012, it stopped after a couple of months. Oh thank God, it stopped. I finally felt safe. There were days I would wail myself to sleep, trying to sort out my emotions, but it looks like those tears cleansed me of anxiety. Now I don’t gnash my teeth anymore, I am sure my husband is so relieved.

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So maybe other Endo symptoms are a lot like Bruxism. You don’t have much control over them when you experience them. But, if you are willing to make a few changes in your lifestyle here and there, the severity might reduce.

Maybe we need to deal with Endometriosis from the inside out. Get healing from the inside out.

I was awaken, when I have joined EndoPositive™ International, and over there it was brought to my attention that endometriosis is a psychosomatic disease. I thought then, psycho what? I realized, we live in the world, where we will so much easier accept pills, surgeries over work on ourselves! Only when I realized, how serious it could get, if I continue to overlook my unconscious mind, I finally woke up! And I am glad I did!

Today, I continue working towards the self love, forgiveness and self awareness. Perhaps you could give it a try. You will be surprised how many things you will find out. If you feel, you are not ready, consider

I originally posted this article on EndoPositive™ International’s website in September ’15 under the title ‘What if you have been looking at Endometriosis all wrong’. My journey has been difficult, refreshing and healing all at the same time. I am still a work in progress, not where I was when I originally penned down this article. My health is at a better place.

 

Have you considered that there could be more to Endo than meets the eye? How has your journey been?

‘Big Sis’

 

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4 comments

  1. snowdroplets · July 7, 2016

    I agree that lifestyle and attitude and thoughts all affect our health and that there’s a lot of benefits that can come from healthy attitudes, thoughts, etc. when it comes to endo. However, I absolutely do not believe that endometriosis is psychosomatic! It’s a very serious illness that should be taken seriously. It’s all too real and definitely not just in our heads! And treatments like surgical intervention may be required. For example, endo can block a person’s ureter and cause serious kidney damage or failure. That said, self-love, forgiveness, and self-awareness are always good and helpful no matter what the situation! 💛

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    • bibi2be · July 11, 2016

      Definitely!!
      I’ve had 3 surgeries and a lot of hormonal treatment and they have played a huge role in feeling better. My intestines and ovary are relieved (:
      I’ve also spent time looking within, revisiting my childhood, forgiving and seen the effects that traveling lighter emotionally has had on my health.

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  2. Jonathan Caswell · August 3, 2016

    Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    MY WIFE AND I WENT THROUGH THIS THE HARD WAY…BUT SHE IS NOW A 33-YEAR SURVIVOR OF ENDOMETRIAL CANCER, PRAISE GOD!

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