The Diary Of A Kenyan Endo Warrior

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Dear Diary,

Endometriosis Awareness month is here.

After 8 years, I am finally ready to share my story in detail. I’m excited but I also feel burdened because there are so many girls and women suffering in silence. 8 years ago, I was that girl, sad, confused, angry at my body, life and God; and in pain. I was in a dark place, tears had become my food. A cocktail of painkillers were my lifesavers. Shark week was more like shark month, I had more days of pain than those without pain. I hated every part of it. I was tired, boy was I tired. I slept tired, woke up tired, spent the whole day tired. I didn’t have to do anything to be tired, I was just tired; tired of being in pain, tired of taking painkillers, tired of not fitting into my clothes, tired of missing out on life, tired of having my periods; tired of being tired.

Deep down, I hope that sharing my thoughts here, will help some of them know that they are not alone and that there is hope. And it’s okay to be tired. Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom to realize that the only way to go is up.

Here’s to sharing my story and uncovering the memories of loneliness, pain, despair, confusion, fear, healing, joy and peace.

Love always,

Ess

 

Published by bibi2be

I am a wife to be, a beautiful bride making my way to the aisle. I have less than 6 months to get there, a day at a time. He put the 3 diamonds on my finger 6 months ago and so far so GREAT!!It has been the most beautiful journey ever. 'Life is a journey' are the wise words a friend shared with me that have made practical sense to me. I live my life a day at a time, with the end goal in mind. My resolve is enough to carry me through the day as for tomorrow and the days to come....I hear that HIS mercies are new every morning and should be quite sufficient to cover me in the days to come. So, I do not lack foresight...OH NO..In fact it is the opposite, I have just learnt to manage my expectations and enjoy my sphere of control:) I double up as the bride of Christ...He is my lover, my friend, at the center of my very existence. He is the reason I smile, the reason I have the strength to go the extra mile. He is my X-Factor, the reason that I will succeed and shine:) This blog is about my journey in life as I figure out my path to the aisle, to the other side of the wedding and most importantly to the other side of this very temporary life. When life overwhelms me,I wait for my sunshine:) as [caption id="attachment_6" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="I smile and wave!!"][/caption] Enjoy the journey of an extraordinary lady following her Master, fulfilling His mission and loving her mate! Bibi2be:)

4 thoughts on “The Diary Of A Kenyan Endo Warrior

  1. As someone with endometriosis I am familiar with my struggles with the disease and know how difficult it can be to share those struggles openly. I hate to read that endometriosis has been a thorn in your side; however, I look forward to reading your story.

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