Reclaiming What Endo Stole From Me

Happy New Year Everybody!

I have this spring in my step after getting some much-needed rest and relaxation.

A few days before Christmas, I met up with a few Endo warriors and we talked, laughed, and loved being in a space where we could identify with each other. I have many thoughts on Endo, but the one that struck me during this meet is that Endo is  THIEF.

Endo is the kind of person who comes into your house and turns it upside down, a person who doesn’t respect boundaries and wants to leave a mark on every part of your life. The one who drives you up the wall and then has the nerve to ask what the matter is. The biggest naysayer, the one who makes you doubt yourself, your abilities and your dreams.  Endo is like a rat that bites your toe as it blows, then one day it turns into a vicious animal and eats up your whole foot. Endo is a sneaky thief that deserves to be lynched in public, in other words, we need a cure.

“What has Endo stolen from you?”I asked the ladies.

When it was my turn to speak, I shuddered at the thought. Over ten years ago, I loved to hike, in fact, the revolutionary period where Endo reared its ugly head was on Mount Kenya. I had this dream to climb Mount Kilimanjaro and participate in other exciting adventures. These dreams and desires died a natural death, endo has a way of suffocating the life out of dreams. When flare-ups, chronic fatigue, and emergency visits are the things that you think about often, you forget that your heart can beat for anything else other than survival.

 

Endo stole a part of my life and I even forgot about it. After the meeting, I was determined to reclaim what Endo stole from me. Over Christmas, I had a chance to walk along Lake Elementaita, it was beautiful and humbling. It was my first walk clad in sneakers in 11 years. I didn’t feel the weight of my daughter on my back, I felt liberated and restored. If my sneakers could talk, they would tell a tale, one filled with adventure.

 

I’m writing down a list of the things that Endo stole from me and reclaiming them one by one.

Here’s to rediscovering ourselves post-endo, pursuing adventure and dreams coming true in 2018.

Happy New Year!

 

Published by bibi2be

I am a wife to be, a beautiful bride making my way to the aisle. I have less than 6 months to get there, a day at a time. He put the 3 diamonds on my finger 6 months ago and so far so GREAT!!It has been the most beautiful journey ever. 'Life is a journey' are the wise words a friend shared with me that have made practical sense to me. I live my life a day at a time, with the end goal in mind. My resolve is enough to carry me through the day as for tomorrow and the days to come....I hear that HIS mercies are new every morning and should be quite sufficient to cover me in the days to come. So, I do not lack foresight...OH NO..In fact it is the opposite, I have just learnt to manage my expectations and enjoy my sphere of control:) I double up as the bride of Christ...He is my lover, my friend, at the center of my very existence. He is the reason I smile, the reason I have the strength to go the extra mile. He is my X-Factor, the reason that I will succeed and shine:) This blog is about my journey in life as I figure out my path to the aisle, to the other side of the wedding and most importantly to the other side of this very temporary life. When life overwhelms me,I wait for my sunshine:) as [caption id="attachment_6" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="I smile and wave!!"][/caption] Enjoy the journey of an extraordinary lady following her Master, fulfilling His mission and loving her mate! Bibi2be:)

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