Endo Prayers: I Need You

Dear Lord,

I need you.

There are so many things that I could say, but my words fail me. The weight of my heart is weighing me down. The words unspoken, sap my strength. You see the cries of my heart even before I mouth them. You know all things, you see all things, you are able to do ALL things.

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Lord, I ask you to help me feel you even in this state of being overwhelmed. As I feel like it’s me against the world: I stare at the pain, hospital bills, the societal expectations, my own expectations of myself and I feel weak. Unable to move.

You see the battle within, the fight of my life to try and stay afloat when I feel like a boulder in the deep, wallowing in the blues.

Wrap me in your arms. Remind me of your promises. Speak to me again.

Help those who feel like me, help them know that they are not alone.

In Jesus name, I pray and believe,

Amen

 

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Endo Prayers: I Feel Misunderstood

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Dear Lord,

This is hard. My tears have become my food and I feel as though I am falling apart. The pain is not only during my periods but all through my cycle and I do not know how to explain it to those around me.

Though I look okay on the outside, I am caving in on the inside, and I feel alone. Hurtful statements have been said by those around me, some of which have pierced the little space that Endo isn’t already crunching on. The pain has multiplied.

Lord, you see my heart and my inner being. Please give me peace, strength, and understanding. Help the pain to go away because I feel like I’m clutching at straws. Help me to love even though I am hurting.

For those around me, I pray that you will help them to see the pain beneath my smile, help them to be more understanding and kinder in their speech.

May you be glorified in and through this.

 

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

Endo Prayer: When I Feel Overwhelmed

There’s a dark valley that the Endo journey plummeted me into. In that space, I have struggled to keep hope alive, stay positive and pray.

I’m not where I used to be, but because I know no-one is immune to the darkness and the feelings and thoughts that come when in that place, I will be writing Endo-prayers, little prayers that you can whisper when you feel like an assortment of emotions.

Some days have been harder than others, but there in the darkness, I have seen a glimmer of light and hope. I know that even in the difficult moments, God is there.

Here is the first prayer:

Dear God,

I thank you because you formed me in my mama’s womb. There is no part of me that you do not know. You see all of my organs and see where the Endo cells have carved out a home.

I feel overwhelmed, and sometimes so helpless because I’m struggling to understand your plan in this place of pain. I desperately long to see Your face in this phase, but It’s hard to focus when my tears are all I see.

Please comfort me and ease the pain. Remind me of your love for me.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

Blessings!

If you need to talk, or a sounding board, you can send me an email via yellowendoflower@gmail.com